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November 19, 2019, 08:06:24 am

Realizing you are not enough

Started by Bryan, October 08, 2019, 08:25:06 pm

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Bryan

So the other day while praying I had this moment of intense revelation.  I know in the past I have talked about not being enough, but in this moment I felt it.  Truly felt empty and completely helpless against God.

I cant remember exactly what I prayed, but I was praying and reading a book by Andrew Murray when this realization hit.

It wasn't just I'm not enough, but that I'm truly not sure if I am willing to surrender to God.

It really is hard for me to articulate but the feeling remains.  And honestly, I'm okay with that.  I feel closer to God by feeling farther from him if that makes sense.

Me living on this spiritual cliff where I feel as though I'm just a breath away from falling again keeps me tied to him in prayer and supplication.

Perhaps that is the strength of our walk with him?
All glory to him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by shedding his blood for us.  He has made us a Kingdom of priests for God his Father. All glory and power to him forever and ever! Amen.