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General Category => General Discussion => Deeper Fellowship => Topic started by: Bryan on October 08, 2019, 08:25:06 pm

Title: Realizing you are not enough
Post by: Bryan on October 08, 2019, 08:25:06 pm
So the other day while praying I had this moment of intense revelation.  I know in the past I have talked about not being enough, but in this moment I felt it.  Truly felt empty and completely helpless against God.

I cant remember exactly what I prayed, but I was praying and reading a book by Andrew Murray when this realization hit.

It wasn't just I'm not enough, but that I'm truly not sure if I am willing to surrender to God.

It really is hard for me to articulate but the feeling remains.  And honestly, I'm okay with that.  I feel closer to God by feeling farther from him if that makes sense.

Me living on this spiritual cliff where I feel as though I'm just a breath away from falling again keeps me tied to him in prayer and supplication.

Perhaps that is the strength of our walk with him?
Title: Re: Realizing you are not enough
Post by: Foadle on April 10, 2020, 04:21:00 am
When we are weak then He is strong.

I have been gaining that same realisation over the past year or so.  At first I was not sure how I felt about that.  But as I began to realise that I not meant to be enough, because I am meant to be in Him and He is my enough I relaxed a little.  Still on the journey though.